FUTURE METRO MEMPHIS TODAY /
FUTURE AMERICA TOMORROW

Minutes of Dec. 15, 2005

Instructor: Dr. Nkosi K. M. Ajanaku, ESQ.


MEASUREMENT AND THE SOURCE
OF PAIN AND HURT FEELINGS

Dr. Nkosi began his lesson by noting that the word “socialize” had been invoked on several recent occasions. He asked if anybody had looked up the word. Everyone present answered “no”. Dr. Nkosi said that fact is the source of the pain.

Dr. Nkosi had the definition of socialize read into the record. Socialize: to make social; adjust to or make fit for cooperative living; to adapt or make conform to the common needs of a social group. He also brought forward the definition of social: of or having to do with human beings living together as a group in a situation in which their dealings with one another affect their common welfare.

Dr. Nkosi made the point that none present had any word in common and thus “you have not been talking.”

The basis of socializing is an idea about who you are, he said. Dr. Nkosi then made these points:

* Nobody outside of you is the source of your pain.
* You have hurt feelings because you are bumping into people (with no word in common and no established idea about who you are.)
* You have no academic common reality.

Dr. Nkosi made reference to the science of biology, which deals with an animal’s physical structure. Psychology, he said, is the base of beingness.

With those sciences in mind, Dr. Nkosi said the pain we encounter is external.

Dr. Nkosi said “to socialize” means you have an idea about something. He said slavery is something you are socialized into as a baby. The objective is to get beyond your memory. You have to divest yourself of the socialization; all of it. That means defining yourself to you and sharing that with others.

You can only grow when you get to the source of life – the individual.

Dr. Nkosi said our habit is to listen through experiences. He made reference to a conversation earlier with Dr. Karanja to bring that point out. He said Dr. Karanja does not know his power up against a group.

Dr. Nkosi said Dr. Karanja’s parents passed along the notion of “you up against they (European Americans). As a result, he said Dr. Karanja carries a mammoth organized force in his mind. It is embedded in his psychic system. He doesn’t remember that. “‘They’ is God. . . .A nigger could not be anything up against that big monster.”

You have to stand on the scale by yourself and come to zero, Dr. Nkosi said.

He then made these points:

* “I” is the basis of all social activity.
* You have to understand you first.
* You feel pain because you feel you can’t talk.
* “I” getting an idea with self and then sharing that with others is the basis of society.
* There is nothing wrong with you.
* Drop the hurt feelings and seeking of sympathy.
* “I” exists outside of all social structures.

Dr. Nkosi said you must stop using words you don’t understand. Look at the facts relative to you. You have no language, no money and no time. You will do nothing unless you square up with that.

Dr. Nkosi said stop complaining. He said you can’t measure and be accountable because you don’t have to. You hang around people who know no better.

Dr. Nkosi said see the joy in becoming aware. Heal yourself and be alright, he said.

Ask yourself: Who do I have a proposal with? This is what I stand for. Be consistent in who you say you are.

Dr. Nkosi said the “I” always sees possibility. Be true to yourself. Extend yourself.

Dr. Nkosi said you have to care. You can’t have relationships without mortar.

Dr. Nkosi noted that each of us have a limited view of him. He also said when you measure using biology “you will get fucked”. Slavery is going with biology over the rational.

Dr. Nkosi concluded with these points:

* Anything that happened is past tense.
* Slaves always down slaves.
* Think royally.
* Nobody is doing anything to you. Get rid of that notion and stop spreading that around.
* Think of Dr. Nkosi positively.
* Don’t try to have a special Dr. Nkosi in your head.

FUTURE METRO MEMPHIS TODAY /
FUTURE AMERICA TOMORROW

Minutes of Nov. 17, 2005

INSTRUCTOR: Dr. Nkosi K. M. Ajanaku, ESQ.


Dr. Nkosi made these points relative to a lesson he gave pivoting off of Dr. Nzinga’s desire to change her relationships with the members of the Tennessee Mass choir:

You all have memories of the first and second grades and the little boys and girls in those classes. These babies don’t know what they have in common. That’s what happened to us.
There was nothing to help them; no common facts.

The boys go away from their mothers into a group of boys. You learn nothing going in the other direction. Some boys stay in the house with their mothers. They become effeminate but they still don’t know anything about sisters. This is a fact you can have together.

The language experiences are different. People are mute. No one is talking about anything.
I will help you learn to talk. I have asked Dr. Ayan to help me.

Dr. Ayan directed comments toward Dr. Kamau and Dr. Karanja. She said she did desire to give them something relative to getting their desires fulfilled. She made reference to the previous minutes which reflected that neither she nor Dr. Karanja or Dr. Kamau knew what to say to the other sex or had the language to do so. Nor had they helped the other say what he/she needed to say.


Dr. Nkosi continued:

The reason males need to do this: Sisters stay where they are (with their mothers – the source of life.). Brothers go away from the source and create (bullshit bonds with other brothers).

Dr. Karanja responded to Dr. Ayan, saying he too had reviewed the minutes and that the image he saw of himself was embarrassing. He said he desired to get a relationship going with her and would take her up on her commitment to help him say what he needs to say.


Dr. Nkosi continued:

Who is your highest priority? Who do you value outside of you?

You must understand the concept of equilibrium. Equilibrium relative to your heartbeat means you are dead. You have to die out of the conduct you have and stop your habits and behavior.
You have to stimulate somebody to be with you.

Dr. Nkosi introduced the word “solid-state”, which means: designating of, or equipped with electronic devices, as semi-conductors, that can control current without heated filaments, moving parts, etc. He continued:

We are talking about evolution. As in going from analog to digital.

You have to put control on the energy you expend every day.

Songs are vibrations, electricity, energy.

Language and ideas are vibrations you can use to bring about change in yourself. No one can bring about change with the old way boys and girls relate.

Boys and girls grow biologically. They never reach a meeting of minds. There is no control of what is being said.

Feelings go up and down. You have to get outside of feelings. You have to work together.

Dr. Nkosi said males must have developing a new relationship with sisters as their highest priority. He continued:

Find out what is stimulating her. All women are stimulated by male presence.

Males have the “moving” energy.

Males come into existence to compliment the source. All of their motion should be relative to complementing the source.

Dr. Kamau reflected that: “I have not established my highest value.”. . . It is necessary for me to move because I have the “moving” energy.


Dr. Nkosi continued:

All sisters are the same relative to the condition.

The male is responsible for using his “moving” energy.

Sally and Sam maintain the plantation. When you (the brother) shift you help her get out.

The situation of brothers moving away from sisters creates poverty.

Dr. Ayan offers an opportunity. However, none of the brothers are together on the same Dr. Ayan.

You don’t have the facts with each other.

Go into yourself and become conscious.

This is an opportunity to get together on one fact.

If a sister has to move you about something, you already are dead.

The behavior of brothers is a killer to the family

The “who” is the only way out. The “what” is controlled by European Americans.

I am under a Sisterhood mandate to learn how to be the Head of the Family. I can’t do what you need to do, which is all that a woman needs done.

Future Metro Memphis Today /
Future America Tomorrow
Minutes of Oct. 20, 2005

INSTRUCTOR: Dr. Nkosi K. M. Ajanaku, Esq.


Dr. Nkosi made these points:

You have to have facts. If you have facts, correct facts, you could do almost anything. You have to have real facts because if you don’t know what happened, you will program the next generation on to some delusion.

Dr. Nkosi made reference to the aftermath of Hurricane Katrina. He said African leaders programmed the future that there was a big conspiracy and that works against the future. .

Slavery is restrictive language and restrictive behavior. You can’t sit at the dinner table with the master. If you don’t have facts about history, you can’t grow. You basically talk about what you pick up as a child.

Dr. Nkosi asked: Does anyone have enough knowledge to embrace your total self? How you see and are seen makes up the composite reality of your self.

Can you go get to other side of life? Do you have the language to go get the other side of your self?

Both parts represent the whole. Male and female is representative of that. You have to cooperate to have a baby and to create a society that is competent and adequate for the baby to understand itself, even though it comes from two parts. If you have not had that, you would not know how to get the two parts together.

Make it possible for someone to be with you on a factual and principled basis. Do you know how to do your best in getting the other side of yourself? You have to make sure your side is clean by being cognizant of the facts.

(Transition)

If you have any assumptions about these facts, you will get mad at somebody else and not your self. That will exacerbate the problem.

(Transition)

Dr. Nkosi made reference to a conversation he had with Dr. Kamau and said it was the reason he was focusing on this topic. He said it was symbolic.

In people’s language in America you never hear the individual talking about facts relative to what to do with the outside world. That is what he is straightening up.

Dr. Nkosi said that in listening to Dr. Kamau’s language and questions, they would have to start with “I”. You have to know what you know and what you need.

In slavery there is no “I”. We call it the “who”.

Your orientation to life is that. That is what is going on in the country. At the end of the day, there is no individual who has gained new knowledge for self. As you see, you are seen. If you don’t know how you are seen, you can’t get it.

There is no volitional public language to build up the individual. Most language is tearing down language. We don’t say good things. You tear down your own possibilities. You put yourself in a bind and you can’t reach equilibrium. Equilibrium means you eventually come from vertical to horizontal. You freeze your time so someone can come into your zone.

You have no control in this zone. Only the idea controls. You have to be co-dependent to produce the idea. Do a self exam and ask: Have I been taught how to create a relationship with myself and with another? Have I had a course? If not, you must get one. You are dealing with past time, childhood. Thus on the 6-hour trip, Dr. Kamau would have nothing on his own to go to others with.

(Transition)

The question to you all is has anybody got out of that. Has anybody moved on you to establish a relationship in the group?

The difficult thing is that all things done in our country have been done by European (American men). European American women are waiting on them (European American men) and they can’t do that. It is in the culture.

Basically we have been taught to see life vertically. You can’t reach equilibrium vertically. They are the hierarchy of the past; all big people of the past.

No one has taught you how to mature in your generation and take the reins. No one can develop an idea without another.

Dr. Ayan: So you are saying authority means nothing?

Authority means something, but you won’t reach equilibrium with it. You do have to have social structure. Essence is the issue. In slavery you are caught in the web of a hierarchy and you can’t get back to self.

Regardless of your education, you’ve had no course in how to be. It doesn’t exist in America. Your frame of reference is vertical hierarchy: uncle, police, pastor, etc. It has nothing to do with your birth. You will never change anything through social structure. You have to change as an individual.

You see someone else as having to show up to do something for you. You don’t see that you are big enough to create a new civilization based on a meeting of the minds.

When you try to meet someone through this structure, none of the words are adequate to define who you are in fact. You must do that for yourself.

You don’t know who you are or who the person is. That is the problem. In the case of Dr, Kamau and the ride with Dr. Nkosi, he (Dr. Kamau) did not have an image of self or whom he was riding with. He was moving on his memory and stuff in the past.

He has to have an image of self before he can have a meaningful relationship with anybody. The image is the main thing you have to have. The original image from Africa was taken away. There are no words in the English language for an African American to have an image of self.

If you have image of self, you would not have slavery. If you had an image, you would fight every day.

Dr. Nkosi made reference to the Million More March. He said the information conveyed in the march was directed toward the “white man”. There is no white man. Thus it is useless. If you break down the language, you are talking about something very big. They are making a plea to somebody. Who is the target of the message? Who was it? If a great big person could be the savior and devil, that is an awfully powerful person. Listen to the minutes (from the march). They represent slavery.

Everyone on stage was about as old as anybody living. So who are they talking about and to whom are they talking. They have to be talking about somebody bigger than someone living. You are a part of that American culture. If you have no way out, you are part of that.

To change you must have new knowledge about yourself and you have to build up the people outside and around you. If you tear them down, you have no one around you worth anything.

You think people are supposed to show up good. When they don’t act that way, you tear them down. If you laugh with them at all, it is Amos and Andy language. There is nothing positive relative to a position you stay on to create a better world to live in.
See who you build up. When you build up others around you, you build up yourself.

(Transition)

On the plantation, the language is normally to tear down people. You pick it up as a child. As an adult you have to know you will kill the potential of having better people in your life. You are the one who creates society, so how could they show up all ready.

You didn’t go to school (to learn who you are). Why assume they went. If they’ve got new knowledge, where did they get it from? That is the conversation you would be having.

(Transition)

Power means that you understand that you have all the words to communicate an idea. You know who you are at all times. When you talk with someone, you must know who you are. Are you the one acquiring information or giving the information? Is your goal to set and have the best relationship and you are the primary source and responsible for that at all times.

On the plantation, the social structure is the master. You will never change that in that context. The people around you do not have a way to break the vertical structure of society. When you see the leaders of your generation plead, they are pleading relative to what they picked up as children.

In any assembly you have to know who you are, why you are there and be conscious at all time of what you know.

(Transition)

Let’s talk about the term teacher in the hierarchy. Dr. Ayan teaches the Night University. The way she looks at that and the way you look at that would cause a train wreck. Teacher is not a primary word. It is a social function. You could never get together through the hierarchy.

She exists as a human being first. The Night University, or any situation, is just an objective way to see things better. Teacher is a role. In this research, the individual is the essence. You will never know her through the function. Treat her like a human being. She has to treat herself as a human being.

Because we have been children, we look at these social things in the wrong way. We don’t have the correct frame of reference for the “who”. In this research it is all about the “who”.

Charles VI was the head of two or three countries and had different names in those countries. The point is we look at life through structure. He (Charles VI) would have to know who he is beyond the roles.

In our situation the role becomes the person. The equilibrium is the individual. You cannot be more than that. You can assemble and share and there can be a chairman so things can flow through context. But in our case you have to have feedback to have corrections. I want you to make a correction on that. If everyone invests in the teacher you could never learn fundamentally.

You can’t have a human relationship through roles. We are picking up institutions set up by European Americans. Whatever I use, you go back to your childhood. This research is not about that.

You can have a human relationship with Dr. Ayan and one with you. The whole thing is who am I at any point in time. If you find somebody bigger than you, you are in childhood. You can admire and appreciate, but if you find a person bigger than you, you are a child. That is the way we have been taught.

Dr. Nkosi said you want to get to the point where you are able to bring an idea to somebody where you are not big or little. It is like representing sperm and egg, tools to get together. You have tools to make an idea. Once you share information, you don’t own it.

You have to do all it takes for sperm and egg to get together. Then you have to insulate and nurture. It’s the same with an idea. You have to shape the idea. You have to get fundamentally how you behave.

(Transition)

Dr. Nkosi focused on the history and possibilities involving Dr. Ayan and the sister who was her roommate in college and who was attending the meeting, having been displaced by Hurricane Katrina.

If you don’t take advantage of Dr. Ayan, you will not do anything. You all were in school coincidentally. You were not sent there to be together. No one told you about the possibility of having met. That’s why when you have reunions, you can do nothing with them.

They (Dr. Ayan and her roommate) are half of the Homo sapiens. When they talk, they don’t any about the other half. They have no common language. That is the problem. They were in school with boys and other girls. You leave and you go backwards into the world by yourself. Now you have the opportunity to change that. You can take the research and you can talk this way (forward) because you know you can’t talk in the past.

Dr. Ayan’s former roommate asked: Is it unhealthy to talk about the past.

Dr. Nkosi said: Yes in this context. You can’t get to equilibrium in the past. You go back in time because you don’t know how to go forward. You start a conversation and there is frustration.

People go back to youth because they don’t have anything in school to talk about. Everyone lives in the past. You can’t do anything with that. Why? If you are on the highway and have a flat tire, something happens to the car, if someone remembers something that helps you in that situation that is what the past is for.

That is what memory is for. It is never good unless you have the present tense. No one has present tense in America. That is what slavery is about.

It’s not just African Americans. It’s European Americans too. We don’t have the same landmarks; nothing in the past. Nothing will happen with African Americans waiting on European Americans and European Americans writing programs for us. We turn the children over to a system that goes backwards.

(Transition)

When you leave meetings, you never discuss these minutes. You have to discuss these minutes. They never mean anything. We never have discussed minutes. I don’t know people who have done that. I don’t know two people who have done that. I’ve never seen people come to consensus on the minutes.

Dr. Ayan’s former roommate said she had problem. She said she understood that the relationship they had was based on the hierarchy. She asked if it was going to be a hindrance if she wanted to go somewhere with Dr. Ayan and eat and talk about her family and what has happened since graduation.

Dr. Nkosi said: It will be a hindrance if you don’t agree to talk in the present tense as an
adult. People do that all the time. They don’t have the information to change. If one of them does, you have to go back and talk about little stuff.

The sister said: Those are the types of conversations I would want to have. We have not talked since graduation.

Dr. Nkosi: If I were her, that is what I would do.

The sister said: You are saying that still would be wrong.

Dr. Nkosi: No, not wrong. It is not conscious. Dr. Ayan has a choice to make. What I do is talk a little talk, stick something in and go on to talk to someone else. You can have catch-up time and (say) we will talk about nothing serious. And have a good time. Then she can say we can do this. If your answer is no, that is all she can do. She could take a chance.

I suggest that you can talk about “A” and “B”. You have to discuss that at the outset. You can talk about the new freedom name. She will give you one. . . . That is a great conversation.


(Transition)

Restricted vocabulary is what we have. We are trying to say a whole lot with mother language. You’d be so surprised how much you bring language from the past to the present.

Dr. Nkosi amplified with a reference to a sister who told him she did not want to get “huss” on her feet. He said the word is “husk”, a reference to external stuff, such as dead skin on feet.

You hear things like that and it is not a word. People might know what it is. It is the language of your parents and grandparents. It means nothing. The language in school is not relative to learning how to talk with each other and do anything.

You have female and male language from the plantation. You will never have equilibrium with that. You tear down because you are frustrated. You can’t make it with street language. You are not professional and educated. Your language is retarded. Slavery means restricted language and behavior.

We are trying to get the (Future America) youth out and expose them. Normally you can’t go anywhere in the inner city. Most of their lives are spent within three blocks. They can’t get the information they need to think.

Take these minutes and compile them. Take the two sets of minutes and put them in some sort of order. Talk to one other person – at least.

HOW TO RELATE TO
THE HEAD OF THE FAMILY






STANDARDS

I will relate to Dr. Nkosi Ajanaku, Esq., as the Head of the Family.
I will deal with Dr. Nkosi in a spirit of cooperation.
I will have integrity with Dr. Nkosi, meaning I will be resolved to do the things he asks me to do in the time frame that he asks that it be done.
I will relate in the first person, talking in “I” language.
I will stay positive.
I will keep out all negatives.
I will ask questions.
I will stay on topic.
I will not anticipate and block him from completing what he has to say.
I will stay present tense.
I will stay at the table.
I will fight for clarity.
I will not get into a passive mode.
I will mentally take others into the room with me when dealing with Dr. Nkosi alone.
I will socialize my minutes with Dr. Nkosi.
I will take the initiative and not add on stuff.
I will talk until he is satisfied that I am clear.

(Developed by the Memphis/Chicago Divisions of The Future America Basic Research Institute, July, 2005)